i have yet to go to bed. i am so going to regret this in the morning. i need sleep. why am i not sleeping!? i just like being awake. i feel like i miss stuff when i sleep. i am always like this over breaks/holidays.
maybe that is a theme of my life.
if i break routine, i fall apart. i don't like the sound of that. i want to know that i don't have to be so ritualistic about EVERYTHING and i want to know that if things get changed up on a day to day basis, i don't have to get paranoid, or upset, or angry, or depressed, or anxious just because common occurrences or routines are skewed.
i want a large dark italian roast coffee, now. (my coffee consumption has been limited to 12 oz every day for the past 1 and a half, miracles happen)
on a running note:
i ran 35 minutes today at tempo pace. it was incredible, and i thought i was honestly going to die. mississippi is hot, the summer is going to be death. i start workouts on monday. 200s/400s and tempos. i am excited to get my legs moving under me again, that quick turn over is going to be blissful.
i'm going to sleep when the sun wakes up,
ren.
SO feel ya on the routine thing! i am NOT spontaneous in the least!
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