i have yet to go to bed. i am so going to regret this in the morning. i need sleep. why am i not sleeping!? i just like being awake. i feel like i miss stuff when i sleep. i am always like this over breaks/holidays.
maybe that is a theme of my life.
if i break routine, i fall apart. i don't like the sound of that. i want to know that i don't have to be so ritualistic about EVERYTHING and i want to know that if things get changed up on a day to day basis, i don't have to get paranoid, or upset, or angry, or depressed, or anxious just because common occurrences or routines are skewed.
i want a large dark italian roast coffee, now. (my coffee consumption has been limited to 12 oz every day for the past 1 and a half, miracles happen)
on a running note:
i ran 35 minutes today at tempo pace. it was incredible, and i thought i was honestly going to die. mississippi is hot, the summer is going to be death. i start workouts on monday. 200s/400s and tempos. i am excited to get my legs moving under me again, that quick turn over is going to be blissful.
i'm going to sleep when the sun wakes up,