today was one of those days where you just can't wait for it to end, yet it was still a great day in all. i was looking forward to the run all day because i knew that would be at least a 3-hour trip that i would have all by myself. i think my day was so crazy because i really investigated who i was, and what my purpose is, and what i am doing with life. i literally wrote 5.5 pages of questions i was asking myself and God. God really showed me today that he is in control of my life and that if i obey him, things will turn out better than i expect. i just can't put into words my emotions, regrets, thoughts, or worries right now; they are all running rampant. so the run....
the 11-miles went great, however, i was seriously freaked out the entire time because there were 2 different instances where creepers watched me. one was worse than the other though. i have never had anyone stop and get out of their truck before. not being judgemental, but these guys were dirty dirty. as soon as i got to a T in the road these guys pulled over: passenger seat rolled the window down and at first i thought they might ask for directions, but then the driver got out of the truck and walked around to the back of the truck bed. i made sure i made direct eye contact with both of them and i put on the meanest mug i could muster up. i was at 50 minutes exactly and thought, "hmmm, good time to turn around and book it the other direction." my senses were so in tune and i really think i could have killed anyone. luckily there were houses in the near distance (country style homes....so very sparse and population 10 for miles) and a lady watering her garden about 200 meters away but it was tucked away in some trees. i always have senario movies running through my head as to what i will do if certain things happen....here, i was gonna dash over some barbed wire fence to the nearest house and scream bloody murder. i heard them drive away with a peel out, but i was afraid that they would come at me from the other direction (head on this time). not gonna lie, probably my scariest moment ever running (especailly since i am a girl, being nabbed and raped is my ultimate fear). i was paranoid for the rest of the run, but i got in some good alone time speaking with God about issues and life matters.
finding myself again,