oh and i have something wrong with my abdominals. i think i have a hernia, or a cyst, or a severaly strained ab which detached and balled up into the left side of my belly button. it feels like a skittle is trapped under my skin....and there is no rainbow there. just a bunch of ugly pain. all i know is that it hurts so bad and i want to vomit from it.
i hate being in pain, God please just let me heal but if it will bring me closer to You, let me rest in You only.